Dearest Baby Jesus,
One day to go before your birth. I cannot but feel more excited and cheerful for your coming. I could say that I do my very best to prepare myself for your coming, but it’s not enough. Anyway, I truly believe that it’s not on the grandiosity of my preparation what you would like to count on in me, but it’s my heart. No matter how big or small my preparation for your coming, what matters most for you is the willingness of my heart to be open with the possibility for renewal and conversion.
Within this month I really do my very best to embrace renewal and conversion in my life. Sometimes I gain and improve, at times I fall short. To embrace renewal and conversion in life is really a win-or-lose experience. It takes a lot of enthusiasm, determination, and faith. It’s challenging, yet gratifying. Dear Child Jesus, I’m sorry for failing you and also for not doing the good things that I ought to do. I’m sorry also for my stubbornness and for doubting your graces and blessings. I’m really so ashamed to welcome you, but you proved to me that I should not be ashamed in welcoming you despite the many failures and shortcomings that I have. You still love me. It’s a humbling experience to realize that your love helps me to move on and comforts me whenever I am anxious and preoccupied with so many negative things in my life. I am so blessed whenever I fall. You always say to me “Be still…Do not be afraid for I am always with you”. As you always saying this to me I am always assured of your presence in my life. And, knowing you is one of the greatest gifts that I in my life.
As your coming is almost near, Lord, teach me to love just like the way you show your love on me. Make me a channel of your love even though I am being rejected because of love. It’s your love that make me realize who really am I; broken and unworthy, yet consoled and redeemed. Clothe me with the mantle of your love that I may be strengthen and motivated by it to face life’s challenges with a positive outlook in life. Although uncontrollable sadness sometimes distresses me as I wait for your nearing natal day, make me happy and have an eager and a joyful trust in you. May I also learn to lean and to count on you as I really struggle for peace and serenity of my mind and heart.