On Love and Nothingness

eternal_nothingness___faust__reiji_by_chocoholicmello-d5lotpwI always confront myself with the different manifestations of love. I realized that the only requirement in order for me to abide on it and to pattern my life on it is to recognize that I am nothing. Befriending my own nothingness is one of the most tiring challenges that I always encounter and experience every day. Nothingness then is the origin of love. Sounds weird, right? But as I reflect on it, there’s a truth behind nothingness in relation with love. We all agree that when we speak about love it is something immense, a great feeling, overwhelming, and awe-inspiring. We adore it and devote our lives on it when we encounter it and experience it into our lives. But, have you ever pondered that without recognizing our nothingness we cannot speak about love? Hence, our nothingness is the only path that will lead us to the greatness and prominence of love.

To touch our own nothingness is to touch love which essentially our driving force to exist. Actually, it is easy to say that we are nothing in front of love than to recognize, appreciate, and accept our nothingness for the sake of love. Why it’s so hard to be at ease with our own nothingness? Because we have the tendency to be too proud with ourselves and to cling with our own description and depiction about ourselves which sometimes creates a speck into our eyes in order not to see the nothingness within us. Let go and let God (or let it be)-a simple command which is not so hard to say to ourselves for the sake of recognizing, appreciating, and accepting our own nothingness, but so difficult to put into our own actuations.

However, how will we ever learn to recognize, appreciate, and accept that we are nothing in front of love if we will not do our best to let go and let God (or let it be)? How could we move on in order to see our nothingness with serenity and peace in our hearts if until now we are hesitant and afraid to remove the specks into our eyes which blocks our sight for accepting that fact that we are nothing? Let us dare ourselves to take this risk because it’s the only way to affirm the fact that it is through our nothingness we happenstance the real sense and significance of love in our lives. Love is a series of letting go and letting God (or letting be). By sinking into love, it requires our nothingness.

For the past years of struggling and finding the relevance of love into my life, I have just pondered today that it boils down into one substantial statements: I love because I am nothing; I am loved because of my nothingness; and I have been filled with love because I am came out of nothing. From these statements I realized be aware of the fact that I am nothing in the presence of love is the basis of recognizing the fact that I am being loved and being moved to love. Thenceforth, nothingness is one of the many weak points that I need to be proud of within myself. Yes, it’s hard to let go and to let God be in control with our lives because we sometimes realize that we cling into something we believe it will give fulfillment into our lives. However, love is not all about fulfillment, but Love itself. And, only our own nothingness could give us the real fulfillment and real happiness, i.e. Love, not an external entity, but something within that embraces us and hold us with conviction and compassion.

Why I am weak?

weaknessWhy I am weak?

A question that continuously boggles our minds whenever we struggle on our weakness. A question that bothers us and sometimes discourages us to move on in life. Self-introspection leads us to ask this question about ourselves which we find it something pessimistic or awkward. I myself fall in this tendency whenever I am struggling with my own weakness and whenever I am in the moment of loneliness. When weaknesses persist in our lives, we feel ashamed, abashed, and mortified. We hate to see our flaws and feebleness. We hate to be labeled as frail because we see ourselves as gifted, proficient, skilled, talented, and unique. But, we are born weak. We deteriorate through old age and death. Our giftedness, skills, talents, and uniqueness do not last. We experience pains, sorrows, anguishes, anxieties, and even failures. So, weakness is an inescapable reality. The more we escape ourselves in the reality of our weaknesses, the more we become uneasy and worried in life.

Why am I born weak? This is one of the many questions that continuously popping-up on my mind whenever I reflect upon the many events and experiences I faced in my life. Sometimes, I blame myself on having some weaknesses that are really so shameful and appalling. Sometimes, I am a little bit embarrassed and uncomfortable when my weaknesses strike and affect my way of dealing with every circumstances that I encounter in life. It’s so pathetic to understand why God allows our weaknesses to distract, disturb, and discourage us. As I reflect on the phenomenon of my weaknesses which affect my life, I realized God allows my weaknesses to domineered sometimes in order to value one of the most important and necessary things in life, i.e. love.

We cannot love if we don’t recognize and accept the fact that we are weak. It is in weakness that we may be able to love sincerely, truly, and honestly. Even God chose to be like us for the sake of loving us unconditionally. It is in our brokenness and fragility that we may be able to recognize love not as a feeling but a fruit of our struggle to accept and appreciate who we are so that we may also accept and appreciate the brokenness and fragilities of others through love. At first glance, we consider our weaknesses as a hindrance for growing in love. But, in my realization, it is in our weaknesses that we grow in love. St. Paul is right in saying that in weakness there’s strength because it is in our weaknesses we may be able to recognize the sufficiency of God’s grace into our lives. Indeed, I should not be afraid of struggling with my own weaknesses in life. Instead, I should be aware of it as an opportunity to love. Love is not all about sugarcoated words and #iwillloveyouforever, but it is all about recognizing in our lives that we are weak, yet capable of loving.

Why I am weak? Why God allows it? It’s because of love. A person who recognizes his/her weakness knows very well that the journey of love begins with a single step with a leap of faith.

strength-weakness

Being-in-Relation

nirvanaSaying “let me do it by myself” is a worst decision for ourselves. We cannot isolate ourselves; everything is connected and relational. Just like a simple carbon atom in our bodies, it constituted as part of a molecule, which forms part of a cell, and also, as we all know, belongs to organ of my body. Hence, we are related because we are part of a family, a society, and a community composed of interrelated living creatures which could also be called the earth community interrelated with the Sun, the Milky Way, and the whole universe. So, we are interrelated, and our inter-relatedness characterizes reality to its very depths and core.

If we are related in everything that we encounter here on earth and everything that constitute us as being-in-relation, it’s the same case with God. If God’s being is completely relational, then this suggest that we are not born alone and we share in the “being-ness” of God. Thus, we are born related and we are constituted by relationships. We will never be alone, and saying “let me do it by myself” or “all by myself” contradicts, denies, and opposes our very own nature as relational beings.

What makes our being relational, interrelated, and interconnected to another? Love. Love is the source of connection and unity. It binds every creatures and every life forms that we see here on earth. Looking upon our existence, it’s undeniable that we are capable of loving. It is in loving that we enter into the realm of relationships and other forms of commitment. Loving encompasses everything. It is not something exclusive but inclusive. It is not selective and does not play favourites because it links, relates, and associates. Therefore, understanding and accepting our capacity to relate is not a matter of doing it all by ourselves but is a matter of connecting and involving which start with ourselves.