In friendship, I believe in this philosophy which states; a friend is someone capable of perfecting my imperfections, fulfilling me, revealing to me who I am because you are my friend, because you love me, because you are my personal good and I am also your personal good, and because you make me conscious of loving and arouses within me a sense of wonder and admiration. Hence, you are so important to me because you make my joy and my being complete. This is how I consider you not just as a friend but a person who has capacities and uniqueness. I trust you, I believe in you, and I respect you because you also did these to me. Because of you everything has changed into my life. You free me from my sorrows and sadness. You help me to appreciate my uniqueness and also my weaknesses. Indeed, you’re such a good friend to me and you’re always saying to me whenever we talk; when you feel down and troubled and you need a person to talk and to be your crying shoulder, just call out my name and I’ll be listening to you and I’ll be at your side as your crying shoulder.
Suddenly, as time goes by, I cannot but be amazed and surprised that these things will be just a part of happy memories inside my mind. What happened? Why things have changed in our friendship? I thought everything will be okay and fine, but why there’s an abrupt amendment on our friendship? Why you suddenly left me behind without any reason at all? Have I hurt you that’s why you left me alone in my loneliness? I cannot feel you anymore. I cannot understand why all of a sudden you break my heart and confuse my mind into uncertainties. Before, everything is overwhelming and wonderful when we are together as friends sharing our own insights about love and relationship; but now out of the blue you faded away without any manifestations. This is a sad reality that unrecognizable and unacceptable. I cannot but cry and ask the heavens why these things are happening to me? Did I commit something wrong to you, my friend?
In this experience I realized that the most painful and hurting experience in the life of the person is to be left behind by a friend without any reason at all. It’s more horrible than a break-up, and more horrifying and despairing than a simple rejection. It’s like a slap on my innocence when you reject me and you left me suffering on my own grief and anxieties. Why? This is the only question that my mind and my heart cried out when you now avoid me and consider me as nobody.
Even if you treat me as nobody or as an insignificant person I will still consider you and love you as a friend. You’re still significant into my life. Yes, I am in pain now, but I will never regret that you became an important part in my growth and in my existence. You’ll always be in my heart no matter how excruciating the loneliness and sadness that you have given me. You’ll always be a friend to me; capable of perfecting my imperfections, fulfilling me, revealing to me who I am, my personal good, and a person who makes me conscious of loving and rouses within me a sense of wonder and admiration. Though how many times you forget me and reject me as you friend, in my heart, I will always consider you as my friend; a special and unique friend to me.
An Insignificant Friend of yours.